Unpredictable with her pair of blue eyes watching him carefully. He responds to her gaze, his eyes blink. Finally she finally nodded, action, mild to almost invisible. bowed his head to himself. But by ten in the morning, snow began to slow down. in a quiet, vaguely hear the voice of distant snow machines. He looked at the upstairs window and the car knocked the snow nurses, baby blue car driving towards the white world. baby hidden in the seat next to her box, the box covered with blankets, baby asleep. doctor looked at her left,bailey UGG boots, towards the street, disappeared, Then go back and sat beside his family. His wife was asleep, blond hair scattered on the pillow, and doctors have made some nap. I woke up, his gaze empty parking lot, looking to take the chimney across the street the smoke, wondering what he should say: I do not blame anyone; daughter will be well taken care of; other people will as always take care of the mother as the birth of her; this to all the best. late morning, the snow finally stopped completely , his son hungry cry, his wife woke up. light. He sat down beside her, put your baby on her lap. the baby's forehead, and then untied robe and took him to her breast before. His son immediately grabbed. His wife looked up at him smiling, he took her empty hand, think of her previous His grip was so tight grip, the finger is almost embedded in his flesh and blood. He wanted to remember to protect her. ; we gave birth to twins. ah, in some places has reached her knees. She was holding a cardboard box with a small baby, small baby wrapped in blankets in the body. cartons originally used to transport the infant formula product samples, outside the box printed with red letters and lovely baby little face, her every step, box mouth to flap. almost empty parking lot was surprisingly quiet, the silence coming from the Quartet, it seems from the wind, and then extended into the air, as if dropped in water spread out, like a stone. She opened the door, the snow whipped, hit in her face raw so. She does not by thinking, body bent as far as possible protect the carton. She put the box to promote the back seat, quietly drawn to the pink blanket white nylon cushion. the baby fell asleep, as with most newborns sleep, little face crepe into a ball, just be slit eyes, nose and chin slightly elevated. Caroline thought, you do not know; if it did not know the future will not. Caroline did earlier A Pujia test and gave her eight. the city streets a mess shovel snow, driving difficulties. the car twice a skid, turn almost twice Caroline. Interstate highways are in good shape. on the road, Carolyn smooth
forward, passing the outskirts of Lexington Industrial Park, to spread the horse ranch, gently sloping plain, along the full stretch of white fence. fence in the snow to cast fresh light, in a field of horses into a black point. a large ash cloud drifting across the sky falls, the sky seemed alive. Caroline turn on the radio, look for the bursts of radio noise, and then throws the radio off. cars passing by outside the window of the world, as usual, there is no change. Ever since Henry doctors reluctantly agreed to this request is consternation, Caroline felt as if slowly floating in the air, waiting for the suddenly floor to see where his fall. He asked her to take his newborn daughter, but not to tell his wife that so. This request seems absurd, but Caroline looked at him a look of sadness to check the confused his daughter, then almost numb to act slowly, one mind for the move. she told herself, he will soon return to reason, he just scared, who can blame him? After all, he had his birth in blizzard twins, and now they run into this situation. she accelerated forward, a scene early in the morning feeling like a river as the passage from her. Henry doctors wield so cool, action focused and precise; Nora. Henry's black hair, white abdomen, thighs and huge flickering, wave after wave of pain as if the waves of the lake ripples stirred by the wind; anesthetic gas peeing sounds, Henry doctors call her that moment, subtle but intense voice, face look so sad, so she thought the baby must have just left the second gifted dead. She waited for him to take action, waiting for him to take measures to save the baby. When he is not hands, she suddenly thought he'd be the last to be witness, this way, her future can say: Yes, baby body pan, Henry tried doctors, and we both tried, but has a loss. Later, the baby crying, crying her lead to his side. She read to know how it was. She continued to travel, to recall behind. highway passes through a limestone, the sky gradually narrowed, and she opened slightly elevated on the hill, and then slowly down the river toward the distant . cardboard box behind her, the baby is still asleep, Caroline from time to time to look back at the sight of the baby did not move, they suddenly feel relieved and distressed. she remind myself that the baby came into the world, after struggling, often slept cooked, this is normal. She thought a few hours after he was born, does it sleep so familiar. but her parents had died, no one remembers those moments. After a four-year-old mother gave birth to her only when his father over fifty-year-old, long abandoned reproductive offspring, no hope and no expectations, even with no regrets. They passes laws, calm and satisfied. until Caroline element of surprise to come, like a break out of the snow blooming flowers. They certainly loved her, but love with a trace of anxiety. they will bet heavily on her attention, while accompanied by a variety of plaster, thick socks and medicinal castor oil. sweltering summer, for fear a pandemic polio, Caroline was forced to stay in the house. She lay upstairs Siyangbacha bench beside the window reading, beads of sweat trickled out over the temple. flies buzzing fly screens rely on some one death in the motionless on the window sill. Outside, the fields in the sun and heat in the shining, the neighborhood children shouting in the distance. their parents young, do not know that the child may be infected with the disease. Caroline to face and fingers close to the screen door, full of children eager to hear the play, before the air does not stagnate, sweat drenched her Mianshan shoulders and ironing the skirt. downstairs the other end of the garden, my mother put on gloves , wearing a long apron, hat and removal of weeds; dusky evening, the father from the insurance company's office to walk home, into the closed shutters in a quiet home, took off his hat and coat with a wet shirt under perspiration. She passing deck, wheels whizzing sound issue. Kentucky River in the far bottom of the slow flow of energy faded last night. She glanced at the baby one. if not leave a baby, Nora. Henry General Xiangbao hold her. This is certainly not something off Caroline. but she did not turn around, she then turn on the radio. this time she found a station playing classical music, to continue driving forward. After twenty miles out of Louisville, Dr Caroline reference to write about the direction of Henry. He's strong and careful handwriting. She opened under the highway. here is very close from the Ohio River, hawthorn, and hackberry branches towering icy, bright; road but smooth and dry. field upper layer of snow, surrounded by a ring fence, the fence-like black spots after the horses, such as mobile, spewing clouds of white mist. Caroline turned into a smaller road, both sides of the field slightly undulating, immense. she opened about a mile of the bare hills, and soon saw the building on, red tiles and brick houses built in the early twentieth century, both sides of the more modern wing of the low house, it does not appear too much coordination. She turns rolling down the path, the Housing flickering, and then suddenly appeared in front of her. She entered the circular driveway. close look under the old house needs renovation, the paint is peeling off the wood frame, the third floor The windows were boarded up, and plywood wood prop broken ledge. Caroline to go off. She was wearing an old pair of flat shoes, soles thin and broken. Can not find last night her boots , hurry put on a pair of flat shoes put in shoes inside. lithotripsy through the snow up top, and her feet feel cold at once. She flung the bag into the prepared shoulders, which arrayed installed diapers and a bottle of infant formula insulation. She picked up the cartons placed the baby, went into the house. light through the glass from lack of cleaning of lead frames projected on both sides of the door. go in there after a frosted glass door, and then is a black oak floor walkway. she smelt a carrot, onion and potato flavor, looked full of hot air and the taste of food. Caroline take two steps forward, straight wooden ring rattle along, but still no people there. wide pieces of wood covered with a strip of bare ground carpet, has been extended to the waiting room behind the house. waiting room, tall windows, thick curtains. She sat in a corner of old velvet sofa, the tray close to the side, quietly waiting. the room is too hot. She untied coat buttons, which is still her that white Hu Shifu. touch her hair, and saw that he was also wearing a white nurse cap aquiline. Henry Dr a phone call she got up the next night with heavy snow hurry dressing to go out, have been busy now came to a halt. She took off her nurses cap, carefully folded flat, close your eyes. the distance came the faint sound of the collision tableware whispered voices, people walking upstairs, sparking bursts of echo. between half asleep, she dreamed that mother prepare festive dinner, the father working in the carpentry room. She is always a child who is very lonely sometimes But her mind is still something left in memory: tight hold a special quilt, embroidered roses at the foot piece of carpet, and she herself belongs. distant bell twice. I got to you, you'll be right over, Dr Henry called out earlier, the sound is full of tension and crisis. Caroline hurried past, but also ended up with two pillows casually a bizarre little bed; twins second child was born,UGG bailey button, her hand Dr Henry Executive mask to cover his wife's face, a small girl then went to the world, led some of the changes. has changed, yes, there is no way you want to control. Even if there is no movement of living in this house, even if the ride waiting on the sofa, Caroline is also disturbed by the slight changes in the world is aware of everything can not stop. is at the moment? she endured did not want to. Over the years, so that at the moment? thirty-one-year-old Caroline. Gill been a long time, waiting for the real part of her life; she had said so himself, and brought up to think that he will not spend your life in an extraordinary manner. That moment will come, everything will change accordingly, and when that moment arrival, she will know. She had dreams of becoming a great pianist, but the high school stage lighting home lighting with very different light in her stunned. to more than twenty years old, she in nursing school friends have married and have children, Caroline, there are some young people, her favorite, one black, white, strong laugh, especially boys attracted to her, she dreams that he will change her life. Although he always did not call, but she still dreams of another man will change her life. Even after many years, gradually shifting the focus to her work, she is still not despair. her own and the future. She is not the kind of halfway stop, sure they have not pulled out the iron, the house would not have been flames engulfed the people. She continued to work, and continue to wait. she read. Pearl Buck's novel first, and then all she could find Description of China, Myanmar, Laos books. sometimes live longer, she let the book fall from the hands, lost in thought among the city into her small apartment frugal edge of the window. She saw herself living another exotic, tough but satisfying life, her clinic will be located in the lush jungle, the size of an ordinary, maybe the sea; the four walls of the clinic will be painted white paint, sparkling pearl-like luster; people queuing outside , squatted under a tree waiting for coconut; her, Carolyn. Jill will take care of everyone, we cure the disease; she will change their lives and their own.
this unsettled landscape filled with her, eager and excited apply to become a medical missionary workers. in a sunny summer weekend, she take a bus to St. Louis, interviews, and included in the waiting list to Korea. But Shaoguang evanescent, Mission postponed the trip, and finally canceled the whole task. Carolyn was included in a separate waiting list, the destination is Myanmar. Then, when she was still checking letters, dreams of a tropical jungle, Henry doctors come here. That it is common, with the average time is no different. a time when the late autumn, it is flu season. room full of people, around people sneezing and muffled cough. Carolyn calls the next patient, they feel a bit dry itchy throat depth. The patient is a man named Rupert. Dean of the old man. subsequent weeks, he will become more severe cold and died of pneumonia. this time with a bloody nose on his armchair fight. He Slowly stand up, Pasay hand in his pocket, little bit of blood on the handkerchief visible. He went to his desk, gave Caroline a cardboard frame on the dark blue in the picture. It was a slightly on the point of the color black and white photo of a woman in the photo looked alert, wore a light pink sweater, her hair slightly undulating, with double dark blue eyes. Aimei Da is Rupert. Dean's wife, has died twenty years. along with the door rattle. She has almost thirty years, but Should died tomorrow, no one will be like Rupert. Dean, like, for the past twenty years is still mourning her. her, Caroline. Lorrain. Jill, of course, with the old Like a woman in the photo, Mr. unique, as worthy of love, but she does not know how to show it. art, love, and even the noble sense of mission work are not communicated with her. leading to the waiting room, the door was open for , she is trying to calm down. A man wearing a brown duffel coat stood in the doorway hesitated for a moment. hat in his hand, quietly looked rough material yellow wallpaper, vine fern corner, and old metal magazine rack. He a little dark red, bronze, his face lean, focused and careful expression. He is not outstanding, but the attitude and look of something special, composure, with a vigilant, the kind of characteristics of good listeners, All these made him different. Caroline heart rate, skin while hot flushes, feeling happy and yet another annoying, as if suddenly swept by the wings of a moth a bit. his eyes went up to her, she understood at once; Even after he came to shake her hand before speaking in a foreign accent even after he reported his name, David. Henry before the Caroline to one hundred percent sure: Her many years of people waiting for has finally emerged. when he was not married. He did not wife, not marriage, as she did not inquire about a date with anyone. No matter the day or after he toured the welcoming clinic and consultation and so on, she listened carefully. other people talking and courtesy, or by his sounds unfamiliar accents and sudden laughter confused distracted, she actually can out of the others did not notice the point: he occasionally referred to that part of the day in Pittsburgh, everyone from his resume and diploma also know that back things, but otherwise, he never mentioned in the past. in Caroline's eyes, the silence and restraint so that he covered with a layer of mystery, the mystery Gengrang she felt others were not like her to know him . For her, every time they meet all deeper meaning, she seemed to across the table, examination table, and a then a beautiful or perfect the body of the patient said to him: I know you, I know, I see where other people did not see. She joked that she overheard everyone fell in love with new doctor, was another surprise, ashamed, a blushed. but she also secretly pleased, because rumor uncertainty will spread to his ears, shyness, she certainly can not say such a thing. calm after working for two months, one day late at night, she found him lying on the table and fell asleep. his face resting on hands on , breathing gently, with a rhythm, evidently has been caught sleeping. Caroline leaned against the door, head slightly tilted. At that moment, she was brewing for many years the dream of all the floating heart: she and Henry doctors will leave together, went to world, a remote place; they work all day, braving the sweat on his forehead, hand tools more and more slippery; At night, she would play the piano for him, but the piano across the sea, along a certain turbulent rivers, through dense jungle delivered to their residence. Caroline basking in dreamland, think of God, when Henry opened his eyes and the doctors, she was without reservation, there is no taboo to him smiling. She never so brazenly to anyone. He was obviously surprised that once took her back to reality. and she drew herself, touch hair, murmured some words of regret and the like, blushed. She turned to leave, feel shame, but a little excited, he must know that the next; it under his eyes, she will eventually like her eyes to him. the next few days, she looks forward to the follow-up development, stress is very tough with him coexistence a room. But the days passed, nothing happened. She was not disappointed, but relax, no action for him to find some excuse for delay, and then continue to wait. Three weeks later, Carolyn read newspapers, watch to the social version of the wedding photos. photo has become a David. Henry wife Nora. Asher turned his head, her neck an elegant and delicate, slightly upturned eyelashes, like a scallop shell hh Caroline moved, coat began to sweat. the room is too hot, she almost stumbled and fell asleep. the baby was still asleep beside her. She stood up and walked to the window, wooden floor under the carpet in the old quack ringing, velvet curtain drawn to, and places. for a long time ago, here was an elegant manor house, now a little, leaving only remnants. She touched the corner of the curtain behind the transparent curtains, curtains yellowed, fragile, covered with dust. out the window, a few head cow standing in a field of snow, to find that the grass, wearing a red plaid cloth coat, men wearing dark gloves and cleared a path toward the barn, his hands on the drum swinging. The dust, which pile snow, not fair, not fair. Nora. Henry Why have so many, why live a peaceful happy day? Caroline is the deep resentment of their own ideas and shocked, she let the curtains slipped from the hands, out of the room, walked toward the place where the sound was. She walked into a corridor, in the high ceiling fluorescent glowing, the air filled with thick liquid detergent, boiled vegetables, and light The Niaowei. carts rattle, and some shouted, some whispered. She turns and then change the corner, down the stair, to the more modern side of the house. here into the blue wall paint green, loosely covered with plastic sheet linoleum floor. she passed a few doors, a glimpse of people's lives fragments, and these images as photo-docked in the air: a man staring out the window, the shadow covered his face, do not see How old is out; two nurses are making the bed, their arms lifted Lao Gao, white sheets was almost floating up to the ceiling; two empty rooms, canvas spread out on the floor, paint cans stacked in a corner; a tight door closed, then the last door, door open, which has a young woman wearing a sleeveless white cotton petticoat sitting edge of the bed, head bowed, his hands gently resting on the thigh handshake. The other woman is nurse, she stood behind the young woman, sparkling silver scissors, hair like a black waterfall-like drop in white on the nape of the neck of a naked woman exposed bare, slender neck, delicate and white. Caroline stopped standing in the doorway. , is now cut in a mess, long and chin. . . Caroline nodded, . in the future when she remembered that moment, she always think of it as black and white screen. this picture made her feel emptiness and compassion, but she is not sure why. hair scattered on the ground, then do not go back again, through the window into the cold cold light, she felt the tears in the eyes rolling. another human voice echoed the hall, Caroline reminds carton also placed in the waiting room of the velvet sofa, the baby still asleep inside, she quickly turned back. all related to she had left it. printed with bright red cardboard box cute baby face still on the sofa, the baby's hand into a fist double chin placed in the side, still fast asleep. Phoebe, Nora. Henry inhaled anesthesia said gas fainted before, if the girl, called her Phoebe.
Phoebe, Caroline gently unlock the layers of blankets, picked her up. she was so small, only 5.5 pounds, compared with her brother light, but both have black hair. Caroline check her diaper, black sticky stool wet diapers soiled. Caroline changed his diaper, then back to the blanket in her bag. She had never wake up Caroline sat for a while holding her, she felt so light and small, good warm. Her cheeks are so compact, so changeable. Even in his sleep, a variety of expressions like the clouds drifting away as she also facial features, dimly seen Caroline from Nora. Henry frowning look, also see David. Henry listened attentively demeanor. Phoebe wonderful reflection of her cardboard box and gently wrapped in her blankets around. She remembered David. Henry with a little tired, sitting around the table eating cheese sandwiches, while drinking a cup of half-cold coffee, and then re-open the clinic door. every Tuesday night, he can not pay for those who always the medical expenses of patients free visits. In those nights, the waiting room is always overcrowded. midnight, when Caroline finally work, too tired to think of almost impossible, he remained in the clinic. Because of his kindness, she just fell in love with him, but he treated her and his newborn daughter to a place like this. Here, a woman sitting on edge of the bed, hair falling down slowly, a group from a group scattered on the ground softly light in the cold. this will break her heart, he said Nora. I do not get hurt. distant footsteps, closer and closer. then there is a gray hair, wearing a Caroline uniforms similar to the woman standing in the doorway. her stocky, with her body, the action was regarded as agile, and his face serious. On another occasion, if met, would think this person might Caroline also considered pleasing to the eye. such a long time. Iowa Gov. large, really do not know what the big deal some snow, but this is only my personal thoughts. Well, I can do for you? Rowling side of the question, while Henry doctors desperately tried to remember the path written in the lane below the name. she just put a piece of paper fell on the car. . who also apparently did not tell Dr Henry by phone. Caroline went on holding dirty diapers, which quickly put his hands down to the lower sides of the body to hide the diaper. Janet. firmly with both hands to fork Masters In the hip, narrowing his eyes. Er Weiya involved with some of the salesman, we all know. If you are sent the same company, may wish to pack up and leave immediately. Rowling said, ; sinister cunning, your pair of these people are moral. get some free samples over and over for a week to let us pay for it. This is perhaps the House of people with intellectual disabilities, but management may not stupid, you know? ; I know, ; got to run, and do not come back. The tripod middle, touch pocket to find the key, and then picked up a carton filled with Phoebe, walked into the corridor simple, without thinking what they are doing. her through the two doors, and outside the wind hit the face, It is covered with surprise, as if just born into this world. She again Fabian Washington is good, then drove away. No one tried to stop her, in fact, no one noticed her. Caroline on the highway to a accelerate progress, fatigue just like water dripping through the rock body. just on the road thirty miles, she argued with himself, sometimes made it very loudly. What did you do? she sternly asked myself; She also told Dr Henry argued, while Imagine getting deeper wrinkles his forehead, cheeks could not twitch muscle, is the pair of facial expressions when he is angry. your mind? he insisted to know the answer, and Caroline must confess she did not know. but these dialogues are soon more and more boring. open to the interstate, she mechanically drive from time to time Shuaishuaitou keep my sanity. a time when afternoon, Phoebe had slept almost twelve hours, a few have to feed soon her. Caroline helpless hope that before the baby is hungry can get back to Lexington. She finally opened an outlet in Frankfurt, only thirty-two miles away from home, when suddenly in front of the car from the brake lights flash. She slow down, and then slowly, finally almost completely stopped. It was getting dark, thick clouds in the sun exposed in the light dim. On the hill, the traffic all of stagnation, long line of red tail lights flashing alternately with the white light. in front of a chain out of a car accident, Caroline felt close to tears. fuel gauge shows less than a quarter tank of petrol left, just enough to open back to Lexington, but not enough to meet other conditions. see The trucks in front, alas, everyone might be stuck here for hours, the car has a born baby, she can not risk turning off the engine, stop heating. She sat upright for a few minutes, a numb brain. recent the rear exit of the exchange in her quarter of a mile, export, and she has a sparkling between the vehicles. her car covered with powder blue, hot steam rises, shimmering in the twilight, a little melted snow. the sky again snow, Phoebe sighed, slightly tight little face, and then relax. Caroline With an amazing future to make their own instincts, vigorously to reverse the steering wheel, the car over the asphalt, covered with broken open Stone's shoulder. She reverse driving slowly backwards opened a vehicle could not move, feeling very strange, like going through a train. There is a woman wearing a mink coat, three children play a grimace, there is still is smoking, a man wearing a jacket. She was getting dark sky and slowly driven down, dead like a frozen river traffic. She successfully opened to the export, the road leading to the Sixty Highway,UGG shoes, street trees cover a thick layer of snow. Housing interrupted stretches of fields, beginning only a few houses, then houses crowded together in rows, every household in the windows have been emitted in the twilight light. Soon after, Caroline traveling along the main street of Versailles, brick store pleasing, and she drove, looking for markers to lead her home. Kroger supermarket shop deep blue hanging in a block marked outside the familiar shop standard, coupled with the bright shop windows close to the reduction of various leaflets, to appease the feelings of Caroline. Suddenly, she felt hungry. Now in the end is when? Saturday , less than a night, right? all the shops are out of business tomorrow,UGG boots clearance, and her family only a few stocks. Although very tired, she was pulled into the parking lot, turn off the engine. warm and light, large Phoebe wrapped twelve hours sleeping in the blanket. Caroline loaded diaper bag flung the shoulders, to hide the baby coat. the baby is small, huddled close to her, feeling warm. gale swept asphalt, residual snowflakes float along, a new falls of snow patches hovering in the corner. She carefully walked the muddy snow, fear and trauma of the baby. At the same time, she thought, if the baby left in bins next to the church ladder, or any place, is actually quite easy. but the idea never. this little life all by her master. her heart suddenly filled with a deep sense of responsibility, almost feel top-heavy. glass door opens, head lights and heating from. store full of people, shoppers everywhere, shopping cart piled high, a young man to help customers at the door of loading. door when the young man reminded her, in the juices will flow, drift into the darkness. His face was too red heating oven. Fabian Washington to the shopping cart, through the rows of shelves are not familiar with. She did not know what kind of selection formula, or warm milk. into a different row of bottle nipple, there are all kinds of small bib, everything to make her second thought. her progress toward the checkout counter, I suddenly thought should get yourself some milk and food, they must also buy some diapers. people filed through her side and saw Phoebe all smile. Some people even stop to see the side of the blanket income into her little face. do not breathe for two weeks to answer that big. ; Caroline selected in the sixth row of shelves ...
No comments:
Post a Comment